Calm to my Chaos

Wednesday, February 05, 2003
 
Thinking happy thoughts for Jessie as she deals with important business this morning. Let's hope the crotchless pants do the trick.




Tuesday, February 04, 2003
 
Scene from "Life As a House" starring Kevin Kline and Hayden Christensen:

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INT. GEORGE'S GARAGE - NIGHT

Sam is on the pull out bed, listening to music through head
phones. We HEAR a flush, the armoire doors open and George
walks out of the cabinet, washes his hands, turns off the
light and drops into bed. A nightlight stuck in a socket
above the bed casts a dull blue light over the room. Sam
takes the headphones off. After a long silence:

SAM
I took some of your Vicodin.

GEORGE
I know.
(beat)
Why?

SAM
I like how it feels not to feel.

George turns onto his side to face his son.

GEORGE
I know the feeling.

SAM
How do you become something you're not?

GEORGE
What would you like to be?

SAM
What I'm not.

GEORGE
What are you now?

SAM
Nothing.

GEORGE
That's not true.

SAM
See, that's the thing...I am what I say I am.

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Twenty minutes passed before I realized I hadn't been paying attention to the movie as I was thinking about the last quote in this scene. It reinforced something Amber once told me... that people's perceptions are their realities. I've come to realize that couldn't be more true. Think about why arguments arise. Because each person believes their view of the situation to be the truth. And, no one can change our minds or our perceptions but ourselves. That's the hardest part.